Worst. Day. Ever.
Just to list em down:
- Woke up at 2pm. Missed church and bible class altogether. 1 more miss and I won't get my baptism cert. If I actually have the gall to get baptised at my current state.
- ... Did something when I got up. Not gonna elaborate so don't ask.
- Have not been getting enough sleep throughout the entire week (my fault, obviously. since when isn't anything my fault anyway), so feeling really tired today.
- Went all the way to sunway to eat dinner with friends instead of having dinner with family (mom came back from trip today).
- Totally FORGOT that Today (20th june) was Mom's birthday. O. M. F. G. By now I'm feeling so horrible for forgetting such a thing that I could just kill myself. And adding sulfur to the wound, my sister actually asked earlier if I were coming home for dinner.
- Remember I have an audition for my company's 'idol' talentime competition. I registered and chose "Bad romance" as my song, cuz I didn't know what else to pick. And... I'm so screwed. WHO THE HECK SINGS LADY GAGA FOR AN AUDITION???
- Now it's 2am, and I haven't done a single bit of research on Bad romance's dance moves, planned anything or any of that sort of stuff. I'm SO FKKING SCREWED.
Well, that ain't too bad compared to your worst day ever I guess. But missing my mom's birthday took the prize on dropping my depression to the bottom. I was already depressed about missing church and a good sermon that I should've gone for. Day before that, I should've gone for a sermon at a nearby place, FREE OF CHARGE, for a great sermon. I managed, in my utmost idiotic capacity, to skip both.
And right now, the time I need to talk to someone the most...
I'm alone.
As usual...
And tomorrow I've got to return to a shitty situation I seem to be stuck in. Any more than that and some random person who discovers my blog may do something stupid to get me burnt.
Bah.
What a day.
Depression + desperation.
oh well
just another day of life to get through
more self-pity? yeah that's what the extroverted egoists who strive to perfect themselves would say
sadly i ain't one of those.
I'm not emotionless.
Goodnight...
God...
I'm sorry....
- Woke up at 2pm. Missed church and bible class altogether. 1 more miss and I won't get my baptism cert. If I actually have the gall to get baptised at my current state.
- ... Did something when I got up. Not gonna elaborate so don't ask.
- Have not been getting enough sleep throughout the entire week (my fault, obviously. since when isn't anything my fault anyway), so feeling really tired today.
- Went all the way to sunway to eat dinner with friends instead of having dinner with family (mom came back from trip today).
- Totally FORGOT that Today (20th june) was Mom's birthday. O. M. F. G. By now I'm feeling so horrible for forgetting such a thing that I could just kill myself. And adding sulfur to the wound, my sister actually asked earlier if I were coming home for dinner.
- Remember I have an audition for my company's 'idol' talentime competition. I registered and chose "Bad romance" as my song, cuz I didn't know what else to pick. And... I'm so screwed. WHO THE HECK SINGS LADY GAGA FOR AN AUDITION???
- Now it's 2am, and I haven't done a single bit of research on Bad romance's dance moves, planned anything or any of that sort of stuff. I'm SO FKKING SCREWED.
Well, that ain't too bad compared to your worst day ever I guess. But missing my mom's birthday took the prize on dropping my depression to the bottom. I was already depressed about missing church and a good sermon that I should've gone for. Day before that, I should've gone for a sermon at a nearby place, FREE OF CHARGE, for a great sermon. I managed, in my utmost idiotic capacity, to skip both.
And right now, the time I need to talk to someone the most...
I'm alone.
As usual...
And tomorrow I've got to return to a shitty situation I seem to be stuck in. Any more than that and some random person who discovers my blog may do something stupid to get me burnt.
Bah.
What a day.
Depression + desperation.
oh well
just another day of life to get through
more self-pity? yeah that's what the extroverted egoists who strive to perfect themselves would say
sadly i ain't one of those.
I'm not emotionless.
Goodnight...
God...
I'm sorry....
posted by Liil Masks at 10:49 AM
3 Comments:
Hey cheer up! I'm not complaining. Forgetting my birthday isn't that bad. You can always make up for it....that was what the lunch was for, rite? We should have more lunches like that.
One thing you should really be sorry for is ....cursing. OMFG stands for.....hope it's not what I think.....OMG is bad enough but with an F really needs repentance.
Lova ya!
Hey Brian,
You've got a really great mum right there! (: Should hug her more often, and not wait till birthdays to show her how awesome she is.
God chose her for you for a reason!
Suyin
Brian,
Don't put it too hard on yourself. Tho you don't speak often of it, I can see that you do love your mom very much. Birthday is just one day in 356 days of a year (aside from the odd year that is), you've got plenty of chance to show your love for her, do it.
Ivan
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