With Life Comes Its Up And Downs

It's 1 month away from CF, and I've barely started on my costume, and barely begun on the group cosplay skit. I have NEVER been this unprepared for CF's group competition by the 1-month mark.

I've been sleeping late again. 3-4amish.

I've been DotA-ing like DotA will cease to exist tomorrow. While I have significantly gotten a whole lot better at a general large count of heroes, I have also reduced my life to DotA-ing at every free time.

I have not been to the movies frequently for a LONG time. I still have yet to watch Ironman and Ironman 2. I have yet to watch UP even when I've got it on blu-ray DVD at home. I have yet to watch all the GLEE episodes I've downloaded.

I have yet to actually open my japanese workbook and start doing it like a proper student should.


I have yet to start my quiet time.

I have yet to hold a long conversation with God; one that lasts more than 5 minutes without me lapsing into a "i forgot we were talking" zone.

I have yet to clean my room.

I...



I have yet to tell her that I seem to think of her every other moment of the day.

Which sucks because I'm so blardy sure she'll say no.

Oh well. Love life sucks, especially when you think too much like me.

I wanted to work hard on my relationship with Him first, in hopes that He will say, "Yes it is time. And she's the one."

Heh. I hoped for so much. Who am I to even begin to imagine such things? She's growing so much in Him and I'm...

I'm left far behind.


If I don't go to gym today, I will clean up my room.

That's my promise for today.



God...

I'm sorry.

That's.. all I can say...