little fire oh little fire where is your light

i think i'm falling sick. got an annoying cold, and getting a sore throat. probably gonna get fever later today. hopefully i will.


in need of a warm hug T_T feeling depressed, so i'm making half boiled eggs (3 eggs) to soothe myself >< already ate 4 slices of bread with butter... or was it 6 slices, i'm not sure...


i can't live alone. i can't survive alone. phobia of being alone. i'd probably go insane if left alone with no interaction for a week. maybe even a day.


then again... sometimes i feel like i WANT to go insane. just so i can be laid off the burden of being a sane person, responsibilities, and whatnot.


shut up already. I know I'm only 22 this year and i'm so young and blablabla i haven't gone through real responsibili- i don't care. you don't live my life through me, you don't know what I can and can't handle under what circumstances at what cause. Just because someone else can do it doesn't mean i can.


and i don't have the motivation to. do it for myself? sorry, that doesn't work. don't ask me why, it just doesn't. call it low self-esteem, call it being stupid, call it w/e. it doesn't work. and if you wanna insult me about it, go do it in your own blog.



hurray my eggs are ready. i'm gonna eat it and sleep. gnite.




God

bless my friends

and blogreaders.