3rd

the third time happened today

i hate it

i can't control it



im sorry if i respond badly and push you away at this time

but i really cant control myself at the moment

and i dont wanna hurt any of you

im afraid i will

so please

stay away for now


until im back to myself again

please




and congratulations to a certain someone

for having triggered a third and a second

i know i said first but i remembered so no its second

its an achievement really