The Scar Never Heals

But the pain recedes.



Such like the scars on my body that may heal but never truly recover

So do the scars on my soul that may heal but never recover

They stay a mark on me, serving as a reminder to the things that have happened to me in the past

the hardships of emotional sadness

the mental images of incidents that I can never seem to forget...



(haha I have a mark from HM, and a mark from CNJC, CNJC's being the most profound lalala Physical marks I mean lol)


And it's not easy to heal from these scars

a lot of times, people dig up old scars and bruise and open the wounds back again

and it just starts to hurt all over again

it sucks

and all they can say is to "suck it in like a man and stop being so damned emotional"

Well it's not my fault you don't feel

It's not my fault you don't empathise with other people's problems the way I do

and now I'm just pushing the fault to other people...

*sigh*





At least

at the very least

and much to my surprise

he's trying to be nicer to me now.



I got a shock when he offered to send me to the workshop to pick up my car. And recently he's been nicer to me.

in the sense that he actually talked to me for a purpose other than to yell at me.




I don't know what's going on...

But God, if you're doing something in him

by all means, I pray you'll do more.




As for me...

I hope it'll be my turn soon.

cuz i'm on the road to giving up

everything







God bless my blogreaders.